May 5, 2015


Well, it's been one heck of a weekend.

Sharky has not been doing well, very achey with a hard time sleeping. Came home early on Friday but we went over to Cousin GG's house for dinner. His mom slept there while M&M stayed at a hotel. They had a huge spaghetti dinner. (Yes, my whole diet was shot and my blood sugar ended up being high most of the weekend, but luckily within normal levels.) Had to tell the cancer story many times over the weekend. Got pretty sick of it by the end.

Had an impulse that I acted upon that could have had a bad ending but it worked out in the end. As we were trying to leave, I told Sharky to show everyone his (not-quite bald head - it's really quite fuzzy). He objected but gave in and I made his mom touch it. She thought it was funny and kept saying "I like men ball." Now remember, she's Italian and reverses words all the time (makes sense in Italian but not English) and has a bad habit of not enunciating words completely, and really meant to say "I like bald men." After she repeated it a couple of times, I said "I like men balls too, but that isn't something we talk about in public, Grandma." (pointing to Petunia). If I had actually thought it out ahead of time, I never would have said it but I have a bad habit of blurting out things like that. LOL Luckily everyone got a good laugh out of it, including MIL.

Came back for breakfast Saturday morning. Held my tongue when BIL started spouting off that having odd-colored hair (blue, green, etc.) was "in his experience" a gateway to severe personality disorders that led to drug addiction. I did try and say something, but I kept getting shut up because in their "expert opinion" no one else's opinion matters. I think he's totally full of shit, but as I said, I behaved and said nothing after my opinion was rebuffed.

After breakfast, Petunia went Xian bookstore shopping with MIL, SIL & DG's daughter. (SIL is planning on opening a Xian bookstore.) When I saw Petunia again, later that day, she said she did have fun, so I'm glad. They also treated her out to lunch.

Sharky and BIL dropped me off at the house and they went car shopping (left the truck at GG's). Yes, supposedly Jesus told BIL to buy us a car. Sharky wasn't optimistic about it, but later on, I got a call from him with a VIN number to call the insurance agent with and have the policy papers faxed over to a dealership. Not too long after, Sharky pulled into the driveway and honked. It was a 2005 Chrysler Sebring convertible. It sure didn't look like a 10 year old car. It is beautiful. It was bought as is, no warranty, because the dealership got it in an auction lot and were planning on getting rid of it that way (along with 100s of others). The only things wrong with it, it needs a gasket replaced and a regulator installed for a rear window motor. The top is pristine and the body is in excellent shape. The air conditioning works excellent as well.

I'm still in a bit of shock over it. I'm sure I didn't express enough gratitude, but then I have a hard time with emoting things like that - always have. I hope they did not have an ulterior motive for this, and am trying hard to believe they did this for good reasons. It made me very uncomfortable when they kept saying that they never want to spend money normally, but Jesus told BIL to do it to help us out. I told my mom and she said she hopes Jesus tells them next year to buy us central a/c for the house. LOL

Saturday evening was fun. DG went all out and decorated everything like a luau for MIL's birthday and Cousin AG's graduation. Lots of kebabs, potato salad and baked beans with cupcakes for dessert.

There was a really awkward moment when MIL started telling Sharky not to grow his beard back when the chemo is over with. Sharky insisted that he liked it and wanted it back. That led him into telling the story of how I got my dreadlocks (I told him that if he shaved his goatee/beard/mustache into a really ugly Hulk Hogan thing I was going to dread my hair whether he liked it or not).  MIL, sitting next to me kept looking at me out of the corner of her eye. I then went into saying that Sharky was 49 years old and he can have his hair/beard any way he wants to. I made the mistake of saying that I was 48 and while I conformed for many years, I believe that I am old enough to do what I want, including my hair. She narrowed her eyes and sort of shook her head in puzzlement. She said, "Well it looks like you need to comb it out a bit." I told her no, I wash my hair a couple of times a week, it's clean and I'm happy with it. She then asked when I combed it - after I washed it? I told her no, I never comb it. Then, a pause, and she said "So it's supposed to look like that?" I embarrassed myself by laughing out loud, very loudly. I guess it was not what I was expecting to hear. We changed the subject before it got any weirder.

The next morning, Sharky was really in a lot of pain so Petunia and I dropped him off at GG's house and we went to Volde-mart and did our grocery shopping all by ourselves. LOL Everyone but GG was at church, so Sharky laid down and took a nap. Petunia and I put all the groceries away when we got home and I laid down because my hip was killing me. After lunch, they called us and we went back over and spent some time looking at GG & DG's vacation pictures before everyone said goodbye and left.

After we got home, Sharky wanted to go out to eat. A friend had given him a gift card, so we went to Longhorn's Steakhouse for dinner. It was pretty good.

Monday morning, Sharky dropped the car off at the garage around the corner to have the rear left window wedged up. It needs a regulator for the motor and he can fix it when we find one. Right now, money will be tight for a couple of weeks due to him being home sick and losing pay.

So, today I'm all alone with my car. I thought it would be fun to run some errands. *sigh* It's about to rain, so top stays up. Ran to the library at 10 but it doesn't open until 1. Had to pick up rx, but those won't be ready until 1 as well. Oh well, guess I'll wait until Petunia gets home and then we'll go.

May 1, 2015


Had a fantastic time last night at Carmine's. Got there about 6:30 pm and even though it was more crowded than we've seen it, we were seated almost immediately. (Even had a great spot to park right out front. LOL)  Put our order in and the Sisters of Perpetual Indulgence (Seven Bridges Abbey) showed up soon after. Petunia and I had a great time watching them. The makeup and costumes were perfect as always. Had a wonderful dinner: stuffed jalapeno appetizer, Natural Citizen stromboli, 2 Jersey Shore Fried Calzones, and a piece of cheesecake. Sharky didn't feel like drinking but I had a Duke's Cold Brown Nose beer from Bold City Brewery. (I love that beer so much.) The food and service was perfect and there were ladies from Dining Out for Life walking around, passing out swag.

When it came time to leave, I got up the courage and went over to the Sisters' table and asked if Sr. Margarita was there. She jumped right up and knew who I was. She was so sweet and we took a picture with her. I thanked her for letting us know about the event (which as usual, I had not heard about - always after the fact for me *sigh*). She promised to keep sharing event info with everyone. (And gave the other Sisters a "told you so" LOL)

As far as I know, it's still a go for the visit from my MIL, SIL & SIL's husband. They will be staying at Cousin G's house, thankfully. The plans so far is to visit them over there tonight when Sharky gets off of work and then tomorrow when Cousin G is planning a surprise birthday party for MIL (who's birthday was last week). I'm hoping and praying that everyone is on their best behavior and not on the attack, looking for blame for Sharky's cancer. *fingers crossed*

April 30, 2015


Today is Sharky's lab test, he goes back to work after the blood draw and results.

Petunia has her geometry test (her worst class, but she's been studying) and she's staying after for bad practice.

If everything goes well with everyone, we'll be going to Carmine's for dinner for the charity fund raiser Dining Out for Life which raises money for people with AIDS (the money stays local). They are donating 50% of the profits, more than anyone else. The First Coast Sisters will be there as well, we've been dying to meet them (ok, Petunia and I have LOL). Definitely will be taking selfies.

April 29, 2015


The hibiscus is looking good. Doesn't seem to be shocked by the transplant so far. *fingers crossed*

Petunia stayed after school today (early out) to study for her geometry test.

Felinertia: Rosie was very needy today and kept coming over and walking across my lap like she was looking to lay down. I pulled my blanket out and put it right next to me, and she came right over and fell asleep. I guess she just wanted to snuggle and I'm not as comfy as Petunia? LOL

April 28, 2015


Celebrated Floralia today by re-potting my beloved hibiscus that JBun gave me for Mother's Day back in 2012. It was severely root-bound and starting to fade. Sharky bought me a giant bag of potting soil a couple of weeks ago so I could re-pot it.

Because of the holiday, I had envisioned having a meditation on peace while doing this. Boy was I wrong. Started off having to don flip-flops and rescue the garbage can rolling down the street (thanks to the garbage men). Then it took me a while longer to actually find the pot. The old bag of soil that I was going to re-use on the bottom had fallen apart, so I dumped that in the front yard. Found a hibernating (?) lizard in the stack of pots, so I let him go into the front yard (finding him scared the crap out of me). Had to take off the flip-flops and put on actual sneakers when I just about went ass-over-teakettle a few times down the stairs.

Put the large pot and drainage dish on the front wall and left a couple of sea shells that had fallen in there. Put another pot upside down was placed inside to help drainage. Then I opened the new bag of dirt and realized there is no way I can pick it up, it's just too heavy. Had to go find a pot to scoop dirt in and proceeded to do so.

Got it over 3/4 filled with soil then grabbed the hibiscus. Whoa, talk about resisting change. I had to dig it out literally with my fingers, a long, slow arduous process. Finally got it free to discover there was almost no original dirt left, just roots. Poor baby. Put it in the larger pot where it proceeded to keep flopping over until I got enough dirt in there to hold it up. This really was a job for two people.

Had to go back in the house and fill up the water jug and realized that every single fingertip was burning from the dirt. (Thanks diabetes!) Watered the new potted plant, cleaned up, and came back into the house to discover that I had more dirt on me than I could ever have imagined. Thankfully I hadn't started the washer yet, so I took a shower and realized that I had forgot my whole meditation. Tried to meditate in there, but it just didn't take. *sigh*

Oh well, at least the hibiscus is re-potted. I have more plants to re-pot (the two in the kitchen) but that will have to wait for another day.


Kind of a crappy weekend. Ran to Publix first thing Saturday morning and did the grocery shopping. Wanted to go on a picnic for lunch but the weather didn't cooperate. Ended up stormy (not really where we live but everywhere else). Mr. DW's section of town got an EF1 tornado and his yard got real messy, with window screens on his porch tore up and a tree down (not his, but a neighbor's, landing in his yard). Sharky went over Sunday morning with the chain saw and helped straighten up the best he could.

Yesterday, Sharky stayed home from work. He was miserable all weekend in pain and could not sleep at all Sunday night. He's better today. (Chemo makes him ache horribly and if he takes enough pain med to ease it off, he is basically not functioning well enough for work.)

I didn't do any of my chores yesterday because him being home threw me off schedule. Trying to catch up today. I hate this. I'm borderline panicking for no reason at all.

April 24, 2015


Sharky got some good news yesterday. There were 3 tumors in February: neck, armpit, chest. Now, the neck & armpit tumors gone and chest tumor shrunk from 8cm to 4cm. Two more chemo treatments then another ct scan. So about 6 more weeks. Then they'll decide about further treatment. Oddly, they knew about the chest tumor but neglected to tell him. I guess they were very busy and everything went so fast. The neck and armpit ones were obvious, poking out of the skin, but the chest one is behind the sternum. It does make his chest pains and problems breathing make more sense now considering it was 8cm when they first measured it.

Bad news though, I found out the other night he lied to me about his weight. He lost an alarming amount very fast but gained most back in the past month and a half thanks to the anti-nausea meds. I've been going out of my way (and risking my diet) pampering him to keep weight on. I was too successful. We had to have a serious talk about food sabotage, enabling, codependency and healthy diets. I don't have willpower all the time and how can I tell a man with cancer, "no cheesecake" knowing full well that I can't refuse it. *sigh* We're going to go back to work on eating healthy and having healthy snacks for him around the house when he gets his hunger pains.

According to Sharky, his mother & sister might be coming up this weekend. They were supposed to come up last weekend but had to postpone it. I hope they don't. I know, it sounds mean. I want him to spend time with his family but I just don't want the stress.

I'm going to plan on us having a picnic in the park this weekend anyway.

April 21, 2015


Not much going on. Total airhead day today. Started a lot of things and then got distracted. I did finish washing bed sheets and making the bed, but everything else is half done. I hate when I get like this. *sigh*

April 20, 2015


Had a rather uneventful weekend. Still coughing. Woke up the weekend before last with a sore throat for a couple of days that morphed into coughing. Not a persistent cough, but definitely an annoying one and I've felt for over a week that there was fluid in my lungs. I cough stuff up and its gross.

Sharky got fans for the living room and dining room to replace the old ones that burned out. It was quite a scene, but Petunia and I helped a little and they all got installed on Saturday. They also got me a bag of potting soil so I can repot my hibiscus, hopefully tomorrow.

Got to talk to Bear on the phone on Saturday. That was very nice. Haven't heard from Bug, other than a text here and there. Guess they are busy.

April 16, 2015


Today, Sharky had his lab work. The results were very good. At least we know he's eating healthy. Right now he's getting a CT scan. That should tell us if the chemo is working or not. I don't know when we'll get the results.

April 12, 2015


Yesterday morning we drove downtown and rode the Skyway to Hemming Plaza. We spent a couple hours exploring the One Spark festival downtown. We ate at a food truck and looked at a lot of fun things and crazy people. I took a lot of pictures. We really enjoyed ourselves.