Didn't blog much yesterday. Spent a good portion of the morning being silly with the kids and making online avatars of the family. We Simpsonized and M&M'ed ourselves and had a lot of fun.
I'm closing down my forum (TCG) due to lack of interest and redundancy. The home forum (TWG) was reopened and everyone jumped on the bandwagon over there. When it closed down originally, I tried so hard to keep everyone and everything together and keep the momentum going, but no one else wanted to and interest was lost. I eventually gave up. If no one else cares, why should I? My friend, who is the original mistress of TWG, has decided she wants to run things again, and more power to her. I'd be lying if I said my feelings weren't hurt. She was always the pivotal person, not me. I was just a pale imitation of her and my forum was nothing but a pathetic carbon copy of hers. I tried my damnedest to support her in her hour of need (why she had to shut down and close TWG) but it wasn't good enough, obviously. Now I feel like I've not only lost friends, but community as well. People always asked about her and how she was doing, but it was a long time before anyone noticed I was gone. Most likely, I haven't lost a thing because I never had it in the first place. I couldn't fill her shoes, never wanted to, but damn it, I just wanted some help. This morning, I found a message from her asking me when I was going to shut down TCG. I had not even though about it at that point. It was like, "Hey I'm back, I don't need you any more." I am sure she did not mean for it to sound that way but that is how it felt. *sigh*
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