It's Wednesday already.

Finally got the nerve up to call CW on the phone today to catch up. Talked a long time, he's had plenty of therapy over the years and it shows I guess. He seems to be pretty proud of it because he mentions it a lot. He seems to be happy with his life and I am happy for him. I've already sent a short letter to SB and CW says he'll get PT's email for me so I can send him a note as well. I explained, somewhat, why I was doing what I am doing and I think CW understands a little. It was harder than I thought it would be, talking to him - a few times I had to catch myself on the verge of crying. I don't want to be the crazy old lady here, I just don't think I've had decent closure with certain people in my past and I want to do it now in case there is not a later. Don't mean to sound morbid, because it's true. I truly loved CW and SB and knowing they are doing well in life means a lot to me. PT, I really want him to know that I am sorry if I was ever mean to him and that he was a good friend. I really do not have any expectations of resurrecting old friendships, life is too far changed for that, but that doesnt change a thing.

Not sure why all this has become so important to me and urgent in nature, but I really want to get this done.